Fate and Destiny

Are our lives determined by destiny? Is every detail of our lives already mapped out for us? Sometimes I think yes then other times I think no. Pretty wishy washy huh. I believe that certain factors in our lives are fate but we can in some ways shape our destiny.

I believe I was destined to meet my husband when I did. I had a rather loser of a boyfriend from my senior year of high school for about five years. I really liked him at first and we did have a sweet kind of high school relationship. But after awhile things changed, we both changed, matured. He drank a lot, which always bothered me a little bit, he was never violent with me or verbally abusive but he was never really nice either. After awhile I think that my confidence started to falter and I stayed because I didn't think I could get anyone else. Anyways after I started watching all of my close friends get married, I thought what am I doing? I don't want this for the rest of life. I ended things and with the help of some good friends I didn't feel sorry for myself at all.

My friend and I decided to go camping and invited her boyfriend and one of his friends. I was not looking for a relationship at all, I had only been single again for a few months. But during our trip and the month after it I knew that he would be the only that I married. When we talked about our lives there were so many times that our paths had crossed when we had not noticed each other. I like to say fate brought us together at that time because we were both ready for each other then and only then not before.

Sometimes I step back and look at my life now and can't believe how much I have. I have a wonderful husband, a great step son and a beautiful daughter. I couldn't have asked for a better destiny.

Vent

Okay so my vent for the day is people who do not RSVP. I arranged a baby shower for one of my friends and invited our Bunco group. I mailed out invites with an RSVP on them with my phone #. Only a few people called. Well we had to cancel that shower because she went into preterm labor and got put on bedrest. Fast forward to last week we decided to go ahead and do the shower at her house last night. I sent out an email to everyone and again only a few people responded. What the hell, people are so fucking rude. So it ended up just being three of us but we went out to eat and had a great time. I just can not believe how rude some people are. I will not forgot that and it may seem petty of me to be that way but whatever. I always call and let people know just because I know how hard it is and how much money it costs to put something like that on and when you don't know how many people to plan for it really sucks. But one good thing came of it, one of my friends invited me to join her book club. I have always wanted to be in a book club so this weekend I am going to go get the book they are on right now.

My Big Girl

Well I guess she is really not that big of a girl yet but to a mommy who doesn't want her to grow up so fast she is. It still amazes me that two summers ago she was still cooking in my belly, gosh how time flies. She is now 2-1/2 and thinks she is 12. Our current dilemma is what to do about her bed. She is still in her crib. She loves it. She does not try to climb out of it and she still sleeps relatively good in it. So what's the problem you may ask? Well she is starting to outgrow it. So I guess we need to move her into a big girl bed. Gosh I am so not ready for that to happen. Sniff Sniff.
I think we are just going to buy her a twin bed instead of a toddler bed and get rails to put on the sides until she gets used to it. Unfortunately she does not want a new bed. I am really not looking forward to the fight she will put up on this. I just hope that D will be home every night so he can deal with her, he is a lot more patient than I am.

Welcome

Wow, I have finally taken the plunge and joined the ever growing list of bloggers. It will definitely be nice to have an outlet to say whatever I am feeling at the time. Thanks to my friend S for showing me her secret blog and getting me interested in doing one of my own.