I am still in a funk. Every little thing has been getting to me lately. I am not sure if it has to do with getting rid of all the baby things or what. D has really been getting to me too. I am just really fed up with my life right now. I so need a vacation but have no money to take one this year.
I will return to blogging again when my mood improves so I don't say anything I will regret.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Sigh ...
I am in a funk. Over the weekend we bought E her big girl bed and took down the crib. I know it was way past time but why can't she stay little forever. We are having a garage sale this weekend and D is making me get rid of all of the baby stuff I had hopefully hung onto.
As I pull out all of the toys and baby items I am filled with a great sadness. I remember everything. Which toys were her favorite and who gave her what for Christmas and birthdays and even the baby shower. I have stashed a few things, some of the outfits she wore in her pictures, some of her favrotie baby toys.
My heart longs for another baby, but alas that isn't going to happen for me unless I get a new husband. I can't see breaking up a happy life to try and find someone new just to satisfy my selfish craving. I love my husband and daughter more than anything else.
This weekend will be very hard for me. Don't get me wrong, I love that E is bigger now and we can do things together like get our hair cut and snuggle in a big bed but I feel as if we are missing something in our family. Hopefully I will be able to get over that feeling soon.
So instead of being sad I need to be happy that I am done with bottles and 2am feedings and diapers and move on to the next phase of our life.
As I pull out all of the toys and baby items I am filled with a great sadness. I remember everything. Which toys were her favorite and who gave her what for Christmas and birthdays and even the baby shower. I have stashed a few things, some of the outfits she wore in her pictures, some of her favrotie baby toys.
My heart longs for another baby, but alas that isn't going to happen for me unless I get a new husband. I can't see breaking up a happy life to try and find someone new just to satisfy my selfish craving. I love my husband and daughter more than anything else.
This weekend will be very hard for me. Don't get me wrong, I love that E is bigger now and we can do things together like get our hair cut and snuggle in a big bed but I feel as if we are missing something in our family. Hopefully I will be able to get over that feeling soon.
So instead of being sad I need to be happy that I am done with bottles and 2am feedings and diapers and move on to the next phase of our life.
Friday, July 06, 2007
Friday, Already??
Wow with the holiday in the middle of the week things sure do get screwed up. We got home at like 11:30 on the 4th. E did not want to get up the next morning for school. And it was an early bedtime for us all last night. Yesterday seemed like Monday and now it is already Friday.
We had a good time on the 4th. We went out to my dads. He had smoked a pig for my brothers grad party so we had leftover pig. OMG were the ribs good. We even got to bring some home plus he still has some left at home. E did really good considering it rained from about 3-7. She really liked the smoke bombs and the parachutes. I even let her hold her own sparklers.
She did really good I was so proud of her. I didn't take hardley any pics cause of the rain so that was a bummer. But here is out loot before we left out house.
The highlight of the evening was D's new catch.
My dads neighbor had to go get his bathroom scale to weigh it 45lbs. I know how much you all love his fish pictures so I will just put on one more
All in all we had a good time. NOw to find something fun and cool to do this weekend, its supposed to be 95 here all weekend. Maybe we should go to the lake.
We had a good time on the 4th. We went out to my dads. He had smoked a pig for my brothers grad party so we had leftover pig. OMG were the ribs good. We even got to bring some home plus he still has some left at home. E did really good considering it rained from about 3-7. She really liked the smoke bombs and the parachutes. I even let her hold her own sparklers.
She did really good I was so proud of her. I didn't take hardley any pics cause of the rain so that was a bummer. But here is out loot before we left out house.
The highlight of the evening was D's new catch.
My dads neighbor had to go get his bathroom scale to weigh it 45lbs. I know how much you all love his fish pictures so I will just put on one more
All in all we had a good time. NOw to find something fun and cool to do this weekend, its supposed to be 95 here all weekend. Maybe we should go to the lake.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Happy 4th of July
Happy 4th of July to all of my friends.
I hope everyone had a great weekend. Ours seemed like it wasn't long enough. Friday was the visitation for my grandpa. It was raining like crazy while I drove there. It really sucked. But Friday night my MIL watched C and E so we could go out for date night. D & I went out to eat and to the casinos. We didn't win any money but we still had a good time.
Saturday was the funeral. It was a nice funeral but man it was rainy. Not just rainy but almost like it was a monsoon. The funeral was in the town of Osawatomie that is making headlines because it flooded. I was worried that we wouldn't be able to get out of town after the funeral was over. It was crazy. C actually had to spend an extra night up at our house because the highway was flooded and his mom couldn't get up here.
Saturday evening after we got home we had to go to a birthday party then Sunday my mom wanted to meet up with me to give me my birthday present. Then into work on Monday for a short week. Ugh, but I am done with checks now so I had a spare minute to wish everyone a happy and safe 4th.
We are going to my dad's house like we have the past couple of years. It is always fun. He is having the leftover pig he smoked for my brother's graduation party so I am really excited to eat that. I am making deviled eggs and a crunchy Asian salad. Alright I better get a few more things done. I will leave you with a pic of my flag girl.
I hope everyone had a great weekend. Ours seemed like it wasn't long enough. Friday was the visitation for my grandpa. It was raining like crazy while I drove there. It really sucked. But Friday night my MIL watched C and E so we could go out for date night. D & I went out to eat and to the casinos. We didn't win any money but we still had a good time.
Saturday was the funeral. It was a nice funeral but man it was rainy. Not just rainy but almost like it was a monsoon. The funeral was in the town of Osawatomie that is making headlines because it flooded. I was worried that we wouldn't be able to get out of town after the funeral was over. It was crazy. C actually had to spend an extra night up at our house because the highway was flooded and his mom couldn't get up here.
Saturday evening after we got home we had to go to a birthday party then Sunday my mom wanted to meet up with me to give me my birthday present. Then into work on Monday for a short week. Ugh, but I am done with checks now so I had a spare minute to wish everyone a happy and safe 4th.
We are going to my dad's house like we have the past couple of years. It is always fun. He is having the leftover pig he smoked for my brother's graduation party so I am really excited to eat that. I am making deviled eggs and a crunchy Asian salad. Alright I better get a few more things done. I will leave you with a pic of my flag girl.
Monday, July 02, 2007
Stephanie
I know you really wanted to get rid of the rain but really did you have to send it up here ;)
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